This is Part 2 of a post that began last Friday. I guarantee you’ll be confused if you didn’t read that so here’s a quick link so you can get caught up. Part One
I stumbled because I didn’t realize it would be this hard or this painful. I became so weak I wasn’t able to continue working on the project. To finish what my Guardian wanted me to do – had promised I would do. The visitor had other plans for me. With every month that passed I became more and more frail and my dream of completing the project slipped further and further away. I clung tightly to what my Maker promised like a life preserver flung to a drowning man, quietly repeating the words to myself, etching them into my soul.
God is not a man that he should lie, nor a son of man that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? ~ Numbers 23:19
No one told me that I would have such a difficult time removing the intruder when he decided to lay down his tentacles deep and strong. He was solidly entrenched like a soldier avoiding enemy fire in a foxhole. It would take more than me to do away with him and the Guardian called in the experts.
The professionals’ sole purpose was to exterminate him from my house. They did all they could. Not all at once of course, but in an orderly fashion, even though I wanted everyone to throw everything they had all at once at the poser. Remove him quickly and once and for all. They couldn’t do that, they said, but they came, one by one, to ply their various trades.
The first one brought in his knives and his lasers and attempted complete eradication. He was a nice man with a quirky grin and a funny bounce in his step. He was brilliantly superior to others in his field and got very close to ridding my home of the unwanted. But in the end my enemy remained. Sitting there with a stupid grin plastered on his face that if you looked at it long enough began to look maniacal and gave you the shivers.
The second professional was from Brazil and poured toxins all over the house which undoubtedly quieted the trespasser but made me sick in his wake. He too, was very nice and enthusiastic and interestingly brought the same turkey sandwich to work each day for his lunch. I wondered how someone could eat the same thing day after day, but never got up my nerve to ask. His toxins wore me out and damaged me physically yet the interloper remained. I’m pretty sure he was hiding under the bed in the guest bedroom.
Months ticked by as I lay in pain followed by exhaustion followed by nausea followed by more pain followed by more exhaustion. The intruder triggered an endless loop that even though I knew it would eventually end – knew it had to end – there still seemed to be no escape. When that helper left he told me confidently that he’d see me again, but as I shook his hand goodbye I secretly hoped I wouldn’t.
I leaned ever harder on my Guardian’s shoulder. The peace He afforded me was almost more than I could bear. He was so lofty, so far above me, how could He love me so?
You might wonder where my family and friends were in all this. They were there helping, supporting, assisting me and the professionals as best they could. They prayed diligently and there were times I felt enveloped in a cocoon of their prayers.
But, I worried about my parents. I didn’t want them to have to watch me go through this. I knew they thought often of what might be, projecting a future they couldn’t comprehend. We’d lost my brother in a car accident at an absurdly early age and one night I lay in bed speaking softly to my Guardian, “I don’t want to go before them,” I whispered, tears slipping down my cheeks and wetting my pillow. “Why should they have to battle through the death of another child?”
“They’re not going to lose you,” He said matter-of-factly.
I sighed and laid back, knowing it to be Truth. “I will trust you,” I said as I turned over and drifted off to sleep, swearing I could hear my visitor in the kitchen rooting around for his late night snack.
When the intruder surfaced again, showing his hideous face and parading around the house, we brought in the third professional. This last one was a handsome, serious, mastermind with a machine that loomed as big as a house. He set it up and left it to run its course of pulsating photon radiation beams while I lay on a special bed to protect me. For thirty-eight days I listened to noises that sounded like photon torpedoes firing out of the Enterprise at a cloaked Klingon vessel. Could this be the answer? I had a special bed, but the intruder didn’t. Could I dare to expect that torpedoes would be the answer to destroying the nemesis that wouldn’t leave? I prayed his aim was true.
When the last guy was done with his newfangled photons we knew we’d still have a long wait before we could determine if the intruder had finally backed his bags and left.
We waited and prayed.
I could hardly contain my anticipation, a part of me was still suspicious because the house was so silent, almost too silent. It’d been over a year since I’d had real harmony in my home. At times I wondered if I’d be able to exist without him. Sometimes I held my breath and tip-toed around the house just to see if I could hear him breathing. Perhaps he was just hiding in the basement and would pop out and scare me like a scene from Nightmare on Elm Street.
My Creator was silent too. I expect He was sitting on His throne with a grin on His face. He already knew my future. He knew what was to become of me and He knew what had become of the interloper. I was reminded of His promises and settled into a peaceful holding pattern.
But it was during a church service when the pastor prayed victory over anyone dealing with a thief in their home that my entire body trembled and every piece of my skin sprouted gooseflesh that I knew my home was healed. I wanted to cry in relief and thanksgiving. I looked heavenward and mouthed a silent, “Thank you.”
Three days later the professionals that my Guardian had called in to help arrived at my door. Their joyful grins couldn’t contain the news they so desperately wanted to relay. From Stage 4b to cancer free.
The intruder was gone.