“The Bible’s not working for you.”
Her words stung like water crackling on a hot pan and my blood ran cold. It was her way of saying God’s not working for me. My heart sunk.
The hard truth was … she was right, in a way.
I had been denying my sin.
I hadn’t confessed it, hadn’t repented of it, hadn’t asked for forgiveness, hadn’t received God’s glorious grace.
I’d stuffed it down inside like no one could see it.
But everyone could see it … even God.
And while everyone looked the other way, God didn’t. He had to call me up on my game of hide and seek. I hid and He sought and found and used this woman to bring me back round to Him.
Thank you, Lord.
Even through the silent tears and the hurt and the embarrassment of my sin being found out … thank you.
Because now I can move forward. Now I can confess it all to Him and receive His grace and mercy. Now I can ask Him for the help I so desperately need and faithfully, He will provide.
He will strengthen me. He will lead me away from sin.
What sin did I commit? Does it matter? God cannot look upon sin and I want Him watching me … always. I wish for nothing other than His constant, unfiltered, undeniable love.
Will there be more sin? Of course. We are sinful beings.
But today, I’ve repented and have been forgiven. I’ve received His grace and mercy. I stand in the light once again, free.
Be gracious to me, God, according to Your faithful love; according to Your abundant compassion, blot out my rebellion. ~ Psalm 51:1
Glorious Father, why do I believe I can hide my sins from you and somehow You’ll overlook them? Keep me forever in Your grace Lord, searching out my heart and finding the sin that creeps inside and tries to hide from the One who knows all. Help me Lord to quickly remove myself from temptation when my flesh or the world or the devil hungers to sin against You. Let me be a source of light to those around me and not an overturned basket hiding sin in the dark. In Jesus’ magnificent name, Amen.
For more of one of the most beautiful prayers in the Bible, please read David’s Prayer for Restoration in Psalm 51.